Seven Years Later and it still makes me cry

As I was coming home from taking Tanner to preschool, I was listening on the radio about it being 7 years since 9/11. To me that was just an amazing - that seven years later I can still remember EXACTLY what I was doing. Down to the details of what the sky looked like what it felt like to sit in a chair holding my first baby and not knowing if we would ever live to see her first birthday. I can remember the fear I felt, and how I never thought life would be the same. It is amazing how much life has gotten back to "normal." I guess that is good but I have spent this day trying to focus on all of those lives lost. I heard a startling fact that over 100 babies were born after their fathers lost their lives on that day. Wow 100 babies who never got the chance to meet their Dads (atleast on this side of heaven) and I am sure many more who were too young to remember.

Driving home I started remembering all the "things" life was like back then and while I would never want to go back to that day - there are so many things that have changed since then that I wish I could go back. First being, Madison was just a baby. I miss those days so much. Her and I were at Gymboree play and music when I heard the news of what was taking place in our country. I dearly miss those days of being at home with her. Now 7 years later she will soon be eight. Secondly, my Dad was still alive. He only met Madison (not the boys) and he loved her soo very much. I remember I was suppose to fly to Nashville to see him in November but I was too scared so we drove. Dad died the February after 9/11 and I so wish I could tell him one more time I love him and even more so I wish he could have met my boys! Thirdly, my sister Stephanie was still alive. We talked at long lengths about how scary the times were. There are so many times late at night when I am lonely that I wish I could call her just to talk. When its too late to appropriately call the rest of the world you could still call her!

Thank you to all the men and women who serve our country (Fireman, Policeman, Hospital and Ambulance workers and of course are Servicemen). I am forever indebted!! God Bless America - and lets promise to never forget.